[what good is it, she thinks, to still be here? the point's been made, and there's no sense prolonging the inevitable. she'll continue down the road alone, and when she does, she'll be fine; it's what she knows best. he can forget her existence, just as he's already forgotten it, or... whatever's happened.
all she has to do is press down on the pedal, leave this behind. move on with, apparently, what's going to be her life now.
but she knows she can't do that. no matter what he does or doesn't know, does or doesn't remember, she owes something to cassian andor. when it had mattered most, he'd refused to leave her behind, so she can't leave him behind, either. forget what they'd blathered on about after she'd woken up; this is her debt to repay.
what she sees cross his face, what she can't look away from, hurts in a different way, too. her eyes soften, and when she attempts to answer the question, so does her voice.]
The Rebellion. We worked together. [in a moment of hesitation, she swallows, trying to figure out what else to say — because that, alone, isn't enough. but i think we're both dead isn't the answer, either. there's something that has to be in the middle.
eventually, she lands on:] There was a mission that took both of us.
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all she has to do is press down on the pedal, leave this behind. move on with, apparently, what's going to be her life now.
but she knows she can't do that. no matter what he does or doesn't know, does or doesn't remember, she owes something to cassian andor. when it had mattered most, he'd refused to leave her behind, so she can't leave him behind, either. forget what they'd blathered on about after she'd woken up; this is her debt to repay.
what she sees cross his face, what she can't look away from, hurts in a different way, too. her eyes soften, and when she attempts to answer the question, so does her voice.]
The Rebellion. We worked together. [in a moment of hesitation, she swallows, trying to figure out what else to say — because that, alone, isn't enough. but i think we're both dead isn't the answer, either. there's something that has to be in the middle.
eventually, she lands on:] There was a mission that took both of us.