[ He can practically feel the reluctance in Charles to accept the help, he doesn't need to be a mind reader for that. It's in every line of his expression, every exasperated sound that slips with his breathing, and Erik can't fault him in the slightest for it. Time has allowed him to think. About his past in the last ten years, and the path he very nearly went down.
And down was an apt word to use, because he knew, had he gone through with it, had he succeeded, there would have been no coming back from that. And there would have never been a time when Charles would even want to look at him again, let alone speak to him, or accept his help. No matter how well-meaning.
He is, admittedly, a little surprised that Charles agrees. He must be that desperate, then, if he doesn't even want the time to think it through. Erik can't begin to imagine what it feels like. Is his own mind any better than the voices of all of those here, when so many scream so loudly in Erik's own? He doesn't know. But it must be, to some degree, if he decides that trusting him, in this moment, is the least objectionable option.
But he says none of that, and instead steps closer to Charles, with the added facilitation of kneeling down beside his chair. Can't come much closer than that, really. ]
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And down was an apt word to use, because he knew, had he gone through with it, had he succeeded, there would have been no coming back from that. And there would have never been a time when Charles would even want to look at him again, let alone speak to him, or accept his help. No matter how well-meaning.
He is, admittedly, a little surprised that Charles agrees. He must be that desperate, then, if he doesn't even want the time to think it through. Erik can't begin to imagine what it feels like. Is his own mind any better than the voices of all of those here, when so many scream so loudly in Erik's own? He doesn't know. But it must be, to some degree, if he decides that trusting him, in this moment, is the least objectionable option.
But he says none of that, and instead steps closer to Charles, with the added facilitation of kneeling down beside his chair. Can't come much closer than that, really. ]