[ There is a part of Charles that wants to disagree firmly with him, but he knows he cannot do that. What Scott's experienced is valid and it is true, he has every right to feel that way about Raven. It is simply difficult for Charles given she is the person he loves more than anyone in the world, and while they have been separated for ten years, that love hasn't faded in the least. It only has become one made of pain and loss. They reconnected recently but she still chose not to stay with him. She keeps walking away from him. ]
I understand that, Scott. But you must also understand that is decades in the future for me, my Raven has not become that person yet. She has never killed before, she is not lost. She is still in her stumbling phase.
[ Which means by Charles's own words, she can still be reached. The stumbling and lost phrase doesn't only apply to the people they know. The struggle is just as valid in the people who have lost their way. ]
I am not trying to invalidate your experience, I believe you. It is likely why I never spoke of her.
[ Like he said, it would be far too painful. It is already difficult to accept that Erik becomes such a monster, although with him, he can see it. His friend is many things and one of them includes monstrous fury and violence. So he isn't surprised to hear that about Erik, only weary and sad about it. But Raven is a different story. He only recently saw that her heart is still compassionate, that she is not gone from him forever. He can imagine his future self is in active agony over their broken bond. ]
The people she loved were murdered or experimented on by humans, it led her to be consumed by grief and rage. I was able to reach her, for now, but ... I am not surprised eventually that hate destroyed what was left of the girl I raised.
[ He didn't succeed with every one of his students. He failed with the two people who it no doubt would have been the most important for, and he carries that. ]
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I understand that, Scott. But you must also understand that is decades in the future for me, my Raven has not become that person yet. She has never killed before, she is not lost. She is still in her stumbling phase.
[ Which means by Charles's own words, she can still be reached. The stumbling and lost phrase doesn't only apply to the people they know. The struggle is just as valid in the people who have lost their way. ]
I am not trying to invalidate your experience, I believe you. It is likely why I never spoke of her.
[ Like he said, it would be far too painful. It is already difficult to accept that Erik becomes such a monster, although with him, he can see it. His friend is many things and one of them includes monstrous fury and violence. So he isn't surprised to hear that about Erik, only weary and sad about it. But Raven is a different story. He only recently saw that her heart is still compassionate, that she is not gone from him forever. He can imagine his future self is in active agony over their broken bond. ]
The people she loved were murdered or experimented on by humans, it led her to be consumed by grief and rage. I was able to reach her, for now, but ... I am not surprised eventually that hate destroyed what was left of the girl I raised.
[ He didn't succeed with every one of his students. He failed with the two people who it no doubt would have been the most important for, and he carries that. ]