[ He saw them both as old men, at the end of their life, and it would take an apocalypse to bring them together once again. It seemed so cruel that it took all those decades of turmoil when he would do anything to pull Erik closer to him. He's angry now, but it comes from a place of heartbreak more than anything else. Pain and loss and perhaps it is the fear of more loss that is making him put some space between them. He doesn't know how many times they broke apart, how long their future selves will keep hurting one another.
Charles can feel that pain now deep in his chest, still so fresh after a decade of resentment, and that strong feeling shines in vivid blue eyes, spilling his sadness over. There's water in his eyes but he manages to force it away without a tear dropping, breaking eye contact and releasing him before he becomes a damned mess in this bloody alien supermarket. ]
I want that, Erik. I truly do.
[ He wants it so much that he feels sick with it, and he understands why despite being enemies, there was this invisible bond permanently tying them together. They were close friends for only a short time, in the grand scheme of years between them, but it is lifelong. It would be just like him to give in after a cup of tea between them, so foolishly hopeful. ]
I'll be trying my best here too, although in my case, it's learning survival skills. I've been a bit pampered, haven't I?
[ Charles smiles wryly at him although it's an attempt to lighten the moment too. They can wallow in their intense feelings surrounding each other all day, but it'll only make them unnecessarily emotive in a public place, and Charles really has to stop causing that. It's been so long since they spoke, that's all. They had only fleeting moments before it crashed. ]
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[ He saw them both as old men, at the end of their life, and it would take an apocalypse to bring them together once again. It seemed so cruel that it took all those decades of turmoil when he would do anything to pull Erik closer to him. He's angry now, but it comes from a place of heartbreak more than anything else. Pain and loss and perhaps it is the fear of more loss that is making him put some space between them. He doesn't know how many times they broke apart, how long their future selves will keep hurting one another.
Charles can feel that pain now deep in his chest, still so fresh after a decade of resentment, and that strong feeling shines in vivid blue eyes, spilling his sadness over. There's water in his eyes but he manages to force it away without a tear dropping, breaking eye contact and releasing him before he becomes a damned mess in this bloody alien supermarket. ]
I want that, Erik. I truly do.
[ He wants it so much that he feels sick with it, and he understands why despite being enemies, there was this invisible bond permanently tying them together. They were close friends for only a short time, in the grand scheme of years between them, but it is lifelong. It would be just like him to give in after a cup of tea between them, so foolishly hopeful. ]
I'll be trying my best here too, although in my case, it's learning survival skills. I've been a bit pampered, haven't I?
[ Charles smiles wryly at him although it's an attempt to lighten the moment too. They can wallow in their intense feelings surrounding each other all day, but it'll only make them unnecessarily emotive in a public place, and Charles really has to stop causing that. It's been so long since they spoke, that's all. They had only fleeting moments before it crashed. ]