[ That is something Castiel, his real father, always understood about him. Jack's desire to do good pre-dated his understanding of all the reasons he probably couldn't be good. His parentage, his out of control power, his naivete that turned around into recklessness. But he wanted to be. It counted for something, at least with Castiel. ]
And if I'm trying to do that right now ... I shouldn't force myself on you. You owe me nothing.
[ It's a painful thing to say. It costs him. It was one thing to be alone without his family, but to have one of them there but not his, it's a lot. And Jack isn't that great at complicated feelings, even if he's had them more often than he'd like. Still, he feels like that is what Sam would tell him, and he trusts the Sam in his head. ]
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[ That is something Castiel, his real father, always understood about him. Jack's desire to do good pre-dated his understanding of all the reasons he probably couldn't be good. His parentage, his out of control power, his naivete that turned around into recklessness. But he wanted to be. It counted for something, at least with Castiel. ]
And if I'm trying to do that right now ... I shouldn't force myself on you. You owe me nothing.
[ It's a painful thing to say. It costs him. It was one thing to be alone without his family, but to have one of them there but not his, it's a lot. And Jack isn't that great at complicated feelings, even if he's had them more often than he'd like. Still, he feels like that is what Sam would tell him, and he trusts the Sam in his head. ]