And I'm grateful. I am glad to be alive. Most of the time.

[ There were some times when he wasn't so happy about it and thought the world would be much, much better off if he was dead and gone. Jack was pretty accepting of his death, every time it happened. He didn't really try to fight it or struggle to survive. He kept being willing to die, whether it was by Dean's hand or blowing up Chuck, either way, he thought when he was alive he just made things worse for everyone around him. He's probably going back to their world only to die again, and in a way it's a relief.]

Then we'll find a way back. I don't know how, but I have all this power, I might as well use it for something good.

[ If he has a purpose again, a drive and a focus, he might be able to feel less like he's spiraling. ]

I'm sorry I made your time here more complicated, but I really do have to protect you.