[ He doesn't really know that he can prove he can be trusted, because quite frankly, he doesn't know how to prove it even to himself. Looking at the path he'd taken, all the choices that had taken him to that moment in Washington D.C., and deciding that he didn't want to keep going down that road, doesn't mean that he would succeed in choosing a better way.
He's settled more into that idea over the past few months, found a quieter sort of life, even if he hasn't gotten used to it. But finding a purpose in that kind of existence has been difficult. He still struggles. Feels like he's abandoned the cause he'd so long fought for. When he'd so carelessly accused Charles of abandoning their people, isn't that just what he was doing when he ran away and hid?
Not that he had many options, to be fair. He's a wanted man. There's nowhere that he can exist in public, not under his name at least. That doesn't erase the guilt of leaving all of that behind. Leaving Charles behind— again.
He glances down when he feels that trace of pain, but he doesn't say anything. It's personal, whatever has caused that sentiment. He doesn't feel like he's in a place that he can ask. ]
One can only hope. [ After everything they'd heard from Logan, any possibility of a better future for their kind is a comfort. ] But I don't know that many of them would want my help.
[ He hadn't exactly left a good impression with most mutants, and he doubts it's that different even in other points in time. Charles hasn't been the only bridge he's burned. It's far likelier they will want him as far away as possible. ]
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He's settled more into that idea over the past few months, found a quieter sort of life, even if he hasn't gotten used to it. But finding a purpose in that kind of existence has been difficult. He still struggles. Feels like he's abandoned the cause he'd so long fought for. When he'd so carelessly accused Charles of abandoning their people, isn't that just what he was doing when he ran away and hid?
Not that he had many options, to be fair. He's a wanted man. There's nowhere that he can exist in public, not under his name at least. That doesn't erase the guilt of leaving all of that behind. Leaving Charles behind— again.
He glances down when he feels that trace of pain, but he doesn't say anything. It's personal, whatever has caused that sentiment. He doesn't feel like he's in a place that he can ask. ]
One can only hope. [ After everything they'd heard from Logan, any possibility of a better future for their kind is a comfort. ] But I don't know that many of them would want my help.
[ He hadn't exactly left a good impression with most mutants, and he doubts it's that different even in other points in time. Charles hasn't been the only bridge he's burned. It's far likelier they will want him as far away as possible. ]