[ This new configuration is strange - Jayce needing to reach up, Viktor leaning down. Jayce's gaze keeps wanting to slide to those frozen halves of the face he remembers, those eyes closed permanently. His thumb traces over his lower lip, something he never would have done when his lips were still made of flesh. It's just so strange, now.
He's quick to pull his hand away again, stinging eyes closing shut. An admission of sorts. All of those lives that burned out around them at the end - all the men and women who died in the city too, defending their home and buying Jayce time.
Jayce knows Viktor isn't going to let any of it go that easily - he can't either. How could anyone with a conscience put that much destruction behind them? All those mistakes. It was only when Jayce thought they were going to die that he felt at peace with the way it would end - that at least they were ending the horror they unleashed on their home.
That he had Viktor back, before it was all over. I promised you. ]
I know, Viktor. I know. [ His voice sounds strained again as he tries to head this argument off at the pass again. ] And I know what I said before, but it wasn't just you...
[ Maybe if he never let Viktor leave. Maybe if he destroyed the Hexcore right away, never having the chance to save him. Maybe if he never got involved with the council, or if Viktor had let him walk off the ledge that night, or left him to die in those mountains...
Everything that went wrong happened whenever they both survived. They shouldn't be alive now, but they are. ]
blanket cw: suicidal ideation throughout the thread
He's quick to pull his hand away again, stinging eyes closing shut. An admission of sorts. All of those lives that burned out around them at the end - all the men and women who died in the city too, defending their home and buying Jayce time.
Jayce knows Viktor isn't going to let any of it go that easily - he can't either. How could anyone with a conscience put that much destruction behind them? All those mistakes. It was only when Jayce thought they were going to die that he felt at peace with the way it would end - that at least they were ending the horror they unleashed on their home.
That he had Viktor back, before it was all over. I promised you. ]
I know, Viktor. I know. [ His voice sounds strained again as he tries to head this argument off at the pass again. ] And I know what I said before, but it wasn't just you...
[ Maybe if he never let Viktor leave. Maybe if he destroyed the Hexcore right away, never having the chance to save him. Maybe if he never got involved with the council, or if Viktor had let him walk off the ledge that night, or left him to die in those mountains...
Everything that went wrong happened whenever they both survived. They shouldn't be alive now, but they are. ]